My previous post was published quite a bit late.

I have this great tendency to start things and fail to follow them through.

Anxiety, Depression, and Attention Deficit Disorder may make studying for a second round of bar exams hard (since I did not pass the first round). However, there is a fine line between self-pity and enabling your own bad habits. Since college and my first year of law school, I have found that I seem to take more time writing essays than my classmates. Where I formerly excelled in grade-school and high school, I slowly came to become an average student where testing required a command of linguistic analysis (as opposed to mathematical analysis).

Honestly, I am still in denial about whether or not I have A.D.D. I grew up with an adopted sister who suffered from severe Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. My sister could not sit still, while I was perfectly able to, but I could never focus my attention on command. My sister appeared hyper as a child, while I suffered from constant fatigue and "daydreaming". When I was thirteen, my "friends" were keenly aware of my absent-mindedness and kindly labelled me a "ditz".  As I progressed through college and law school, it became harder and harder to focus my thoughts and translate my ideas into something resembling English. Expressing my thoughts in a semi-eloquent way has demanded more and more of my time (oh yes, including this blog post).

I finished my my bar exams today.

I took the New York state exam the first day (consisting of essays) , a multi-state exam ( a 200 question multiple choice exam on the topics of torts, evidence, property, criminal law, federal civil procedure), and completed a final day of hectic word-salad grab-bags of identifying legal issues for the MA state exam today.

I did not have a wonderful time on the MA essays today.

Unlike the pointed questions on the New York exam, the Massachusetts section of the bar exam presented a jumble of facts (some relevant, others irrelevant), at the end of which a general question asked : "what are the rights of the parties?"

Even as a self-admitted, semi-intelligent(?) person who appeared to graduate law school with a commendable(?) grade-point average, I was fucking lost the first time I took that exam just as I was the second time. The beautiful thing is, MA essays are a grab-bag of topics. You could study the shit out of Secured Transactions (which i did) only to not see a SINGLE question relating to that topic on the exam. Instead, you are expected to machine-gun the shit out of 50 potential causes of action contained in every other sentence of the single-spaced one to two page jumble of facts spouted. You repeat this five times with 36 minutes to devote to each essay. Then you take an hour lunch break and repeat.

Exhaustion. I wonder if anyone had any similar experiences?